I do this weird thing sometimes, where I think I can handle every problem on my own. Or, even better, I think I can avoid and run from it, essentially making myself “problem-free” and ” totally fine.”
That doesn’t make sense, does it? I’m sort of silly that way.
I just suck at reaching out for help. Don’t ask me why. Maybe I can’t admit my problems, maybe I don’t want to waste anyones precious time, maybe I just don’t want them to make me deal with what I don’t want to deal with. One way or another, I just don’t ask for help or reach out.
The funny thing is, I have an AMAZING support system around me, who I CAN reach out to, if I wanted. I have friends and family members who are so positive and upbeat, who keep me accountable for my thoughts, words and actions and who I know will be there if I needed them to be.
So, why don’t I just utilize the crap out of them?
I do not know. I’m sort of stubborn.
BUT… I do know that I have them. And if I ever get outside of my own mean head and let go of the idea of trying to “handle” it on my own or “run” from it all together, then when that time comes, I will be set, supported and good to go.
I am truly grateful that I have these people in my life, to hold me up, even when I insist I don’t need it. Day 28 of the Grateful Project goes out to them. Thank you guys, for being there for me, and for loving me through so many of my ups and downs. Life wouldn’t be the same with out you.
Sending love, hugs and butt slaps…